So there is this stunningly handsome guy i work with.  the problem is, he is kinda of shy and doesn't strike up conversations with me.  He does it with the rest of the employees we work with, but he barely talks to me.  I have a crush on him. he is gorgeous!! but the problem is, the only one who seems to start conversations is me,even though i am kind of shy too, ill still end up making the conversations start because he never seems to do it. but he talks back to me and smiles and sometimes giggles when i talk to him. Im not sure if he likes me too, because he never seems to start the conversations with me sometimes. hes very quite and shy around me. but whenever i start to talk with him, he'll smile sometimes.  and he always says hi to me too and smiles when he does it.  im not sure if he likes me though. there was 1 time where we gazed at eachother, but after that he seems to barely look at me.  however, i do catch him looking at me sometimes.. i just dont know what to do with this situation. i want to talk with him and flirt a little, but not too much and be forward because we do work together and i want to keep things professional.  but i just dont know what to do?  any advice please??


besides that...today i have had 1 apple, 4 strawberries, one 60 calorie yogurt and two 90 calorie special k bars.  and i just took 3 laxatives.  ive gained 5 pounds the past 3 days from binging like crazy, fuck me.

Hey everyone!!
So this moring i weighed 126.9!!  im pretty happy about that weight, especially when i went out last night with that guy in my math class i told you all about. and we went and ate, i got a chicken salad, and we split this cheese spinach dip thing. i didnt really eat much of it. he had a steak with fries.

today is just going to be an Apple day for me, eating 3-4!

Im really glad that i gave my number to the guy in my math class, its so nice not feeling alone all the time for once.  But i really wanna ask you guys something about him, im not that good at all with this boy stuff so it would be great for some advice :) 
Well we talked and he said that he has fell in love before. I can care less about the other girl he fell in love with, because right now, obviously im the woman in his life now. But is there any chance he can fall in love again and completly forget about his ex? and is there anything i can do to make him like me even more, without trying hard at all??  He also has been opening up to me alot about his past life, and how he used to sell drugs a year ago, but he's stopped that, and it seems like he is a very closed person, like he doesnt seem the romantic type person, is this cause he's dealt with drug shit?  It seems like when we had dinner last night, he wasnt looking at me that much when we had those "no talk moments", and he was just gazing off.  Also, he doesnt really give me compliments that much, like he isnt the type right now to say, "wow u look so pretty", or, "your so beautiful". he barely says stuff to me like that, is it too soon for him to say something and give me a compliment?  We've known eachother for about 3 1/2 weeks now. but when we watch movies together, he always puts his arm around me, and he always holds my hands, and it seems like he does like me, he also always pays on dates for me, and open's doors too.  but theres just the little things i notice about him that it seems like he kind of still thinks about his ex, and just other stuff too.

Any advice on how to make him like me even more and any other advice PLEASEEEE GIVE MEEE!!!
btw, we have only held hands and he's put his arm around me, we havent kissed yet, but i might let it happen in 2-3 weeks, i dont wanna rush things at all. 

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so yesterday went perfect, only ate 2 1/2 apples...and i weighed 128.8 this morning, so i lost weight and finally saw 128!
but however today, i did good, but then i ate cheese and lots of it and i also ate 2 special k bars and 3 prunes.  Im so mad at myself, cus i really want to see 127 by monday morning, meaning tomorrow i have to do good and not binge.
tomorrow i might go out  with the guy in my math class again, which will be exciting, but i really hope there is no food involved, he loves to eat and so i hope tomorrow food isnt the case :/

hopeully by monday ill see 127!! i really hope.
tomorrow my plan is to just eat 3-4 apples!


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so the day before yesterday i had a mini binge on lots of cheese and also spinach. healthy foods, but it made me so freakin full and it didnt bring down any weight for my the next morning.
so yesterday i went on an apple/yogurt diet, eating only 2 apples and 2 yogurts.
this morning my weight was 129.5. by tomorrow i really want to get down to 128 and see that number.

i dont know if i am going to go out to eat tonight with that guy in my math class ive been telling you all about because he hasnt called me yet or anything, so im not sure if its going to happen tonight or this weekend but i really hope we do something.  if we go to sushi, then ill have very little, but i really want to spend valentines day with him, it would be nice, but im not sure because he hasnt called me and yesterday after class he didnt even ask to hang out this weekend, so i dont know whats going on. i dont want to call him, cause ive only known him for 2 weeks and it will make me seem desperate so im going to wait.

i really hope he calls <3 whatever im not going to wait for him, hes annoying me, uhg, boys, just call me damn it :/

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kiss me like you mean it